Don't invest in anything until you have taken a Motorcycle Safety Foundation course. You will find out if it suits you and the investment will not be large. That is the BEST suggestion I can offer.
If that goes well, then you can look at bikes. The idea you can't ride is questionable. Perhaps a full-on race replica won't be appropriate because, frankly, they have highly conductive suspensions. But many sweet bikes exist outside that category.
So I'm with you, don't give up yet. Take the training and then step back and really examine if its something you want to pursue further.
Dragging knee is for the track, and dragging tail is for the lot. --Kane Friesen
When you're in a car, you're watching a movie; when you're on a bike, you're in the movie. --Robert Pirsig
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