Hey Jay I didn't know you sold your bike. I understand were your coming from I sold my first bike (CBR F2) after watching friend after friend die and it made me think, when is it going to be my turn, so I sold it. I held out for as many years as I could and in all honesty your feeling you have now will never go away, its like crack.
I have two suggestions for you:
A. buy some dirt bikes for the family and make it a family outing so everyone gets to ride and have fun.
B. take it to the track, it's much safer, well depending on how crazy you are.