What's it like to be a fan ... BP?
You have been awefully quiet since the race BP. You must be lying low for a wee while like most true fans do, when their shining hero fails to live up to the hype poored on them by their ill informed fans .... ;-)
He was lucky to win the championship last year mate, just admit it, then you can move on with your life.
Become a fan for someone that has a chance of winning again, and you too can enjoy moments of glory ... rather than trying to find a way to explain your hero's failure to reward you for staying true to him for all these years hehehehe.
It's the first step in any recovery. Just admitting you were wrong. It's the first step to getting better mate.
We are all here for you. No one will make you feel like a twat for supporting him (oh, hang on, the is the SBR forum ....) ...