do you want to ride or ride?
its really easy to explain, you sound like to type of rider that likes to ride, but not really riding, riding. i'll explain......i got my bike, and i would ride it to work, home, store, movies, ect. what i later realized was about the sametime i started riding, a buddy of mine did also, so while im at the store, movies, work, ect. he was out riding, riding.
to make a long story short, the more u ride, the more you know and get a feel for your bike, while i was doing the ects. he was getting better. now i am learning and it takes practice, but all i got is age. remember its a skill thing, (its not like u gotta peddle).
trust your bike, find your balance point, and enjoy!!!
hint~ go about 25-30mph in 1st, let off the gas, and open it up.
start with small grips, and work your way to bigger ones.
the slower you go the easier it is to find your b/p.